I am risking it all. Risking feeling for however long it lasts….risking LOSS in exchange for joy, ecstasy, passion. I’m risking looking forward to seeing that face to feeling that touch, risking wanting it again tomorrow even if that means I will lose it the next day. I risk whatever parts of me decide to feel whatever I am feeling because I feel as Alive and Joyful as I do when my feet take turns hitting the ground……I risk it. One day at a time I feel better than I can remember feeling…..joy sans emotional pain. All the people who hurt me are gone. I am free to choose to feel again, and I choose joy.