Imagine an incredibly warm windy day out of nowhere and the joy it would produce in the runner…..well most runners anyway. When I laced up it was 71 and I thought to myself WOW, that’s actually hot by my standards, ok. I made sure I had my inhaler tucked into my bra, a full water bottle on my hand, and as little clothing as possible on my body. I set out and had app issues with the pink ribbon C25K app…UGH! It didn’t tell me to run, so I was walking, so I had to back up the app. So far I feel pretty good but evidently…super slow. My first mile was an entire minute slower. Being colder definitely helps me move faster. But whatever, it’s week 2, it’s all about the breathing now.
I work my way into the second mile, and I just feel OFF. My legs feel like lead. I feel like I can’t pick my feet up, I’m almost stumbling or shuffling. I just want to survive this workout and get home. The wind is battering me and making me feel like I have no footing. I stop to take pictures, tweet, and then get going again, restarting the still malfunctioning app. It kept opening the app store and then the verbal prompts didn’t happen; I was sooooo aggravated. I want to love running today because it’s beautiful but my path was closed and my body felt like….ASS. I said it. ASS. It felt like dirty smelly been at work too long ASS.
I think I need to 1. Hydrate better while teaching and 2. Fuel my body better. I’m sure some people can run after they eat anything but that cookie I ate at the end of the day was………..foolish. I felt like a heffer and when I feel like a heffer I eat like one. See how self-fulfilling negative thoughts are? Stupid heffer. Lose some damn weight….heffer. There’s a fat ass runner and then there’s a fat ass runner who is still eating crap on occasion when she needs to detox. So. No more total suck. It has to stop here, it’s time to get serious about calories and clean eating. W3 has to be better than W2. W2 D3 will be better…..I will turn off the negative tape in my head next time I run. I have to say nice things to my body so it can perform despite the many obstacles it faces. I need to love myself better, extra pounds and all.